I wish

I wish I could shut up my brain

I wish I could stop this rain

I wish I could just see the light

I wish, I wish with all my might

That one day I will learn the truth about myself

And one day also reclaim my health

I wish I could just fade away

Because my ed now holds sway

Of thoughts and feelings, urges and fears

And I don’t know if I can fight these tears

This pain I feel within my chest

Allows me no peace, no rest

I fear I will not be long for this land

Someone please take my hand

And show me I am no alone

That I can be more than skin and bone

I wish to avoid this fate

And freely eat what’s on my plate

But for now I cower in fear

And to me it now is clear

That I am nothing more than a fake

From this nightmare I wish to wake

I wish I could control my mind

For now in utter darkness I find

Wishes cannot come true

When upon my ed, advice I drew

So fly away from the darken night

And remember you can fight.